Please, if you enjoy my fan fiction, do not friend orphan_project. While I do appreciate the request, this is my personal journal. If you'd like to stay updated with the fiction friend instead: orphanwriting Thanks!
( Sam's Worst Vision- Complete )
( Seven Deadly Sins- Complete )
( Letters in my Mind- Complete )
( Vampires Mate For Eternity- Complete )
( Hunter's Journal's & Hero's Journey )
( New Hunters Verse )
( Wincest, and other Stand Alones )
( Just a little J2 for good measure! )
( One More Night (J2)-Complete, posted on Thursdays )
( Chisel Me Down Until I'm Clean (J2)- Complete )
( Original Works/ Transcripts )
( Ville Valo and Bam Margera Slash )

01	Elation.	02	Fear.	03	Love.	04	Temptation.	05	Want.
06	Desperation.	07	Always.	08	Evil.	09	Need.	10	Ruin.
11	Promise.	12	Death.	13	Thrill.

Tags: a secret that never should have been kep, bam margera, deans try for an apology, fanfiction, friends in low places, gettin ready for steps, heros journey, hunters journal, i remember when you stopped listening, i will wait for you, i'm so sorry, jared padalecki, jensen ackles, letters in my head, letters in my mind, listen to your heart, master fic list, mind trap, misha collins, new hunters verse, one long night, one more night, one word game, pov workshop, sam at 3 on christmas, sams worst vision, scenario, season 4, seven deadly sins, small memories, sometimes a mans dog has the best ideas, son of misery, spn13, supernatural, test that zipper, that classic country music, totally not watching porn, vampires mate for eternity, ville valo, watch as the hunters burn, what reading sams journal will get you
Current Location: Bed
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: The Noose- A Perfect Circle

orphanwriting <---- That is what you friend if you're here for the stories. This is my PERSONAL journal... :]

Please also check out my writing community: writingbyorphan which I update as well as the writing journal.:]

Tags: christian kane banner, comment, friends only
Current Location: Death Room
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Nothing

Okay so apparently you can't back date entries in a community, and that is proving, well rather irritating. As I would like to back date "Chisel me down until I'm clean".

So, I have made a writing JOURNAL.

orphanwriting orphanwriting orphanwriting orphanwriting orphanwriting orphanwriting orphanwriting orphanwriting

Please friend there! I won't be moving my other writings that have been posted over at the community though! But I won't be posting there. Sorry for any confusion.

Tags: writing journal
Current Mood: aggravated

I'll give this a shot. O.o

THE TESTIMONIALS OF AWESOME MEME! // ME!!

Tags: awesomeness, meme
Current Location: Office
Current Mood: curious
Current Music: California Bound - Carolina Liar

Okay, so I'm like absolutely inlove with this character. I mean how can you not be? (His homoerotic crush on Dean is just adorable...You all see it. I know you do.)

Anyway, so I was facebookin it up, and I came across these lovely pictures. The caption on the picture said The Rapture, so since I'm not up to date on spoilers, or the titles of upcoming episodes (other than the new episode coming up) I don't know what it has to do with. And I'd like to keep it that way for the most part. I just wanted to share the lovely. :D

( May be spoilerish. So...I'm being nice and cutting... hahaah )

Tags: castiel, supernatural, the rapture
Current Location: Computer Lab
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: None

Okay, I'm going through my F-list and I'm seeing names I've never ever seen before. SO...I want to know who the fluff everyone is. If you've added me and NOT commented, here is your chance to comment so I know who the fuck you are. I don't add people to this journal lightly. So man up and comment so I know who you are. Okay?

Secondly, I might be doing an F-list cut soon. I don't know yet, so don't go hay-wire kay?


EDIT: Dude to the sudden crack down on everything relating to some stuff in the supernatural fandom as well as other fandoms abroad, I've F-locked EVERYTHING, including my comm. I'm REALLY sorry for the inconvinence, and please just comment something that isn't F-locked if you want to be added. As soon as stuff blows over or whatever, I'll re-unlock stuff. So sorry for any inconvinence

Peace Nigs,
Natalie

Tags: comment, f-list, f-locked posts
Current Location: Kitchen
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Scream-o

Weird how the stupidest things cut out of a magazine could fit me so well…

 

WHAT IS MY PURPOSE?

My life is so complicated. It may seem like the best around…But its not.

HOW CAN YOU LOVE ME…

       WHEN I DONT LOVE MY SELF?

My search for purpose is never ending. I know much more than you’ll ever know.

Eternity comes at a price.

DEATH CAN BE BEAUTIFUL…

Angel by appearance     Demon by blood

                   Divided by birth

          Given a choice

Which Path will I take?

Can clarity ever be found?

                        Will I find happiness?

Darkness seeps in.

Hate and sorrow find their roots.

Decay becomes everything

           Covered with scabs

     Broken and sore

I wont give up

ALL PAIN DISSAPEARS

                                                Some what afraid

            Things yet to come ----->

Beginning to take shape

IT WaNTs ME DEAD

I WONT GIVE IN

God damn the things inside

So fragile and worn

                                                                                                  \    Tru understanding \

            never reached

don’t tell me how I am

                                                                                   you don’t know how

                                                                                                I feel

cant be accepted for who

                                                SHE IS

the void will remain open.

A L W A Y S

 

I've actually got this written down in one of my journals and it's actually written like that.

Tags: poetry
Current Location: Your head
Current Mood: restless
Current Music: The Story- 30 Seconds to Mars

Title: Letters in My Mind, 5-7 of 7, COMPLETE
Author: orphan_project
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester
Prompt: 062-Melancholy. 003-Angry. 089-Sick. 024-Cynical. And scared, but I don't know what number that is XD.
Word Count: 1,068 words exactly.
Rating: R for language, violence, and implied sexuality.
Warnings/Spoilers: Negaverse! Angst, Violence, Rape, few spoilers from Pilot, In my Time of Dying, and general season 1.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, but they own me!
Summary: Deans' final five letters to Sam. This all started with writingbyebonio's Letter to Dean to which I replyed with this one and this one. She then came back with these...And now, for your wonderful reading pleasure...I bring you..

Tags: angry, cynical, dean winchester, evil!sammy verse, letters in my mind, melancholy, scared, sick, supernatural, writingbyebonio
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: Ciara Ft Chamillionaire- Get up

Title: Just Another Letter in my Head.
Author: orphan_project
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester
Word Count: 558
Rating: Let’s just go with R to be safe. Implied sexuality.
Authors Notes: writingbyebonio wrote the original “Sam Letter” in which to I wrote the “Dean letter”. This one is for the lovely writingbyebonio, do I give your lovely negaverse justice?

( I found your old music )

Tags: negaverse, supernatural
Current Mood: hurt
Current Music: Package- A Perfect Circle

writingbyebonio wrote this
And I couldn't help, but write the reply...

Title: Letters in My Mind
Author:orphan_project
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester
Word Count: 356 words exactly
Rating: R for language, violence, and implied sexuality.

( God I need you now. )

Current Mood: somber
Current Music: Never a Right Time to Say G-bye: Chris Brown